I haven't mailed it yet but I honestly feel she is not going to read it. And I know for certain it will not change her ways or thinking. I wrote the letter for me. To get my feelings out on paper. To "justify" why we are not speaking to each other.
If I send it,I wish she would just read it. At least she will see in writing what I am feeling and what I need her to know about me. I could never verbally express the letter to her without having another "major" blow up with her. I know that for sure. What do I do? Do I mail it?
I am so confused.The point of my letter is to tell her that I tried doing the best I could for her and if I didn't (or if she thinks I didn't) I'm sorry. I gave it my best whether she thinks so or not. A grown adult here, still looking for her (mother's) approval.

As much as I am hurting and feeling guilty, I feel free of her and my sister. Does this make sense to you?
[This message has been edited by lalady (edited 08-21-2006).]