How can you cry your heart out one minute, and 10 minutes later be laughing with your children? It is a crazy world we caregivers live in.
Tell me how to de-stress, is there a way?
Tell me what you do to care for you? I have restricted my family from even thinking about coming and knocking on the bathroom door when I am in there. This is my only place of solice, sitting there, reading my Bible, praying, crying ... it is a very interesting place to do many things other than what it was designed to do. How did I get off on all that? ........
The point was ... the only place I can ever really decide how I "feel" is the bathroom. The only place I am ever alone is the bathroom. I am so thankful for modern plumbing so I can shower and rest myself in the bathroom! So ... that is what I do to "get away" ... what do you do?
I am anxious, so anxious, and I don't know how to de-stress. This morning I fell on my knees, in the bathroom, and bawled my heart out. I asked the dear Lord to cover us all with His grace. And I gave him all my children, friends, mom, inlaws ... and especially my husband. I gave Him permission to do whatever with us all. That is all I know to do.
The prayer seemed to pay off. You know how some prayers just kind of float around the room when you pray, and then others seem to just zoom all the way to the king of kings? Well, this one must have zoomed, although through tears and drippy nose it certainly didn't feel that way at the time. My hubby had such a good day. He even went out to eat with us tonight. Then afterwards he was willing to go to Wal-Mart ... that hasn't happened in months. He used one of those little scooter chairs to get around in. Our 8 yo son laughed at "Daddy" cause he kept running into the racks in the store. Forrest (my hubby) laughed with him. A month ago I never thought I'd see him smile again, much less laugh! Weird disease brain cancer!!!! It's been up down and all around for the past 19 months. Crazy!
Today was an extremely rare day, and such a treat! What, again I ask, do you do to de-stress? Please share.
I know I'm new here, but I already find myself checking several times a day to see what's goning on here. There's a sweet spirit in this place. Thank you for allowing me to take part in your lives, your pain, and your joys.
God bless you all,