that he would pass on. And then I feel wracked with guilt that I think that!! Is this normal? To be so tired and disheartened that you just think it would be better for everyone including them if they just passed on?? My spouse truly has no joy in life. None! He actually does, he just does not see it at all. He feels everyone is his enemy and out to get him. When asked if he is ok, he replies "I have not been ok for years. What is there to be ok about?" My family says to leave him. I cannot. I truly feel God put me here to be the one to help him. I do love him. I love the healthy man. Not the sick and deluded one which is taking over more and more. Thank you for letting me vent. I just get so tired like we all do.