My name is Veronica and I am a Certified Nursing Assistant that cares for the elderly. I have been married for 39 years but in a sense for only 11years were we actually husband and wife. My husband was about 250pounds when we married and after his mom died he gained weight continuously. In the beginning he was still able to get around and do things for his self and gradually he stopped being able to reach this or that and he needed my help. He went thru a series of health issues and he continued to cook and eat and he had congestive heart failure, high blood pressure, lipodemia,and he blossomed to 900 lbs. Things were real bad he wasn't able work anymore or drive he couldn't fit in a car. I was a full blown caretaker for him, I bathed him and helped him with his daily needs. During this time he was in and out of the hospital to the point the staff at the hospital knew me on first name bases. In 2000 after a trip I had taken with my church my husbands leg had to be amputated because he got a infection in it and by the time they realized it that is all they could do in order to save him. He has not stood since then, he had to stay in the hospital over a month for them to try to heal the area and eventually he was sent to a nursing home for rehab. He lost about 400 lbs with the amputation of his leg. He was able to finally get it together and come home and that is when home health care would come in and give baths and change his catheter. They actually started coming around 1998 or before and has been with us every since. Well up until now he was able to be mobile in his motorized chair and get out of the house and give me a break but then his chair broke we were unable to get it fix and he has been bed bound causing me to really have to do everything. Before even though he was in the chair he was still able to cook and wash dishes and do little small things for me but now I have everything to do. He gets a disability check but I need to work to do other things so when I work I have to make sure I get his breakfast and lunch and have water there and everything he might need before I leave for work. Needless to say I am tired I have done this for so many years and he is so demanding now he wants me at his beckon call. I have to work somewhere and go in order to keep my sanity now it is so very overwhelming. This might be the site for me and it might not be God will reveal. I am better than I was a couple of weeks ago I was just ready to throw in the towel I had my fill thru the prayers of my friends I have found a peace again. Now I just pry for God's strength to see this to the end.