well, here i am again after months. it is so good to be back with other friends. mother is now 92 and has full blown dementia. at least i think its full blown. i am sure there will be more to come. she has her room in a mess, going through everything, then mis placing it. she gets something in her mind, and there is no trying to let her know its not real. she took a broom and wiped the kitchen pictures off the wall, then when i asked her why, she said the neighbor was coming to steal everything. the neighbor is wonderful. she backed me in the corner the other day, and i thought she was going to hit me. sunday nite i wanted to go to dinner with friends, and i had hired someone to come to be with her, well, she played sick. i called and cancelled. she can really put the guilt on me. she was not sick. now, she is in the kitchen hunting for a ten dollar bill she didn't have. i just can't stand it anymore. i feel so trapped. i got a divorse after thirty yrs. then came straight here to care for her six yrs. ago. oh, how hard it is. at first it was ok, i could date etc. but after two yrs. i gave up my life and still don't have it. what can i do?