Been in University in Wales, UK, where my mother was born, and parents met and married during the War. I have been fulfilling a lifelong dream. Mom survived a major operation for bone cancer, and 3 days before going home, and 5 days before my birthday, she suffered a bleed, renal failure, heart failure/attack, and ultimately a bilateral stroke. I have no communication with my siblings and if I had not kept in contact with mom, she too would have passed as my father did last year while in the UK, without me knowing. I was able to see mom before she passed, and said my goodbyes on my birthday. I played her favorite songs, found a pastor, had my husband with me and talked and prayed for a few hours alone with her. I believe she heard me. Siblings did not honor her wishes so she was on feeding tubes for a week, until my one sibling could come home. I chose not to sit at her bedside with my siblings as they have never sat at my parents bedside, nor did I want to watch my mother suffer. Even the day she died, it was her best friend who called to tell me. The funeral was very upsetting, the siblings sat around the room, away from me and my family. Never speaking to my husband or children. Even my childrens adult cousins never spoke. Mom still isnt buried, as she is going to be with dad at Arlington National, and there is a waiting list. So the pain is staying fresh until she is at rest. Still trying to let go of the anger with the sibling drama, but really feeling this grief as I only lost my dad a year ago.
Lots of emotions, lots of thoughts, and trying to sort whether or not to go back to school.
[This message has been edited by angel437 (edited 11-08-2008).]