When my husband passed away 3 weeks ago, I knew it would take time to heal. When I have to do the paperwork involved now, (insurances, will, etc) it seems so much harder to deal with. I was doing all the changes to accounts that are necessary, and a part of me feels like I'm erasing him off the face of the earth like he never existed. I know this isn't true and that he'll always be with me, but the feelings are still there. I get so angry with myself at times because I know this is a normal grieving process I'm going through, but it doesn't make the pain any easier. I had to say goodbye to not only my husband, but he was also my best friend. There are times I see older couples with their grandkids, or just walking with each other and I cry because I'll not have that. How do I get through this??
