This week has been pretty rough. I'm not sure why. It's not an anniversary date and nothing happened to open the wounds but it's just been a crappy week.
I've tried to get motivated here and get on with things. I started a new job about a onth ago. Just working p/t. I was feeling really lousy yesterday at work and at lunch time I found a church and went in and had a real nice cry. I know they were all starring at me when I got back as if they knew something was wrong but no one said anything. I am still babysitting the grandson, but the other one started kindergarten on monday so he will only come here after school.
This week I have been very down and missing Mom so much. I keep remembering that last day and all the events that took place during her passing.
It's like a movie I keep replaying it over and over again in my mind.
I am really getting tired of feeling this way. I am trying really hard to be happy and 'up'. But sometimes I do not do such a good job.
I know that the hospice has a counselor that I can call and speak with......maybe I should give her a call.