Hi,
Yes, G'ma passed away late Thursday night. Mom and I spent Wednesday thru Thursday by her side, holding her hand and praying, praying, praying.
She never woke up but at times her hand would go to her face like she did when she was in a deep conversation with someone. I believe she was getting her "directions",if you will!
What was hard was listening to her breath. She unfortunately had the "rattle". We had hoped her body would be spared that. But it was only for 18 hours or so. Thank God for Hospice. I know they helped keep her free from pain.
A few hours before she passed, I could sense she was finally fighting to cross over. She used to say "Oh gads!" when she was mad or frustrated, and she was saying that towards her last hours like she had had enough.
We were not with her at the time of death. I had my 4 year old with us and she needed some sleep, so we were called when it happened. We did go back and see her before the Funeral home took her. I needed to see her in "peace" without struggling for air.
The cool thing was I knew when she had passed although I was not there. I had just started to fall asleep when I got a sharp pain up my side and I looked at the clock which read 11:38pm. I shut my eyes and then it got stronger again at 11:48pm and that was when I sat up and waited for the phone to ring. Which it did about 30 seconds later. The Nurse said she had passed away about 10 minutes before she called me. So, I am comforted that I was with her in spirit as she allowed me to be with by the pain I felt.
I had the hard job of telling my girls, 8 and 4, when I got home from making funeral arrangements.
I had already told my 8 year the day before she passed that G'ma was dying and had her call my G'ma's room so Mom put the phone to her ear so my daughter could say good-bye one last time. I want her to be apart of the process and know death is a part of life and not to be scared of it. My daughter will also be leading the service after the wake with "The Lord's Prayer".
Her Funeral is Monday and I guess I will need some waterproof mascara for that day! I am doing ok today but the waves of sadness come and go. I just hate how someone say I'm sorry and I go to pieces! I always found that strange.
Anyways, thanks for reading and supporting. I am still a little blah but am going to do some theraputic housecleaning for now.
Bless you!
Jill