Hello Lalady... I have responded to your two other posts..
http://www.care-givers.com/ubb...m26/HTML/000195.htmlhttp://www.care-givers.com/ubb...m26/HTML/000194.htmlYou know lalady, we get very caught up in the dynamics that we have acted out in our co dependent relatioships with loved ones..
If you were to never see your mother again, you must know deep from within your soul and understand that you have given as fully as you could.. and that you will have no regrets.. perahps sadness that you could never see eye to eye and meet each one from a place of unconditional love and balance.. but this may never happen...
My thoughts are that you must truly forgive your adult self and your little child from within... honoring and lvoing bth are vitally important to your soul.
You will never heal your relationship with your mother if you keep pointing the finger at her because she will coninusouly need to defend herself.. it's such an emotionally hook... if you are able at sometime to really meet with her and share what your needs are from a loving space vs a hurtful, needy space, then you may take it to a whole new dimmension.. for the time being, I encourage you to do what you need to do to heal your heart..start doing things daily, specifically for you with love, that make you feel better about you.. take a bath by candlelight.. soak in some healing aromatherapy mixtures that will calm and heal you.. take time to get away from everything that keeps you feeling stuck.. a chance to open yourself up.. open your hearet to something bigger.. you have been boxed in and these ideas will help you to breathe freer and begin a deeper healing process further..
keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
gail