I'm still unbelivably beat .. .
Parents are over 80 and driving me insane along with domestic ( still! ) challenges that I don't know if we can work out ..
Been trying hard so long . . .
Mom and Dad care so very much but if I don't answer the phone RIGHT NOW I get 20 messages saying to pick up the phone . . . do we want their help . . guilt guilt guilt
I am so angry ! that I don't feel 'seen' as taking care of them or a need to be seen as smart . . . hear that . . .
That my vision of a dream and reality are so different . .
Been needing to vent for a while and say aaaaaaaaaaaaaghhhh! I want to live life and I hope my marriage will work . .
but reality is it may not . . .
We've been working so hard for so long . .
Rambling yet again!
Fear that my parents that really are a support emotionally will pass on and my DH won't be there the way I need . . .
So thanks for listening guys
I'm still here!