LOL... Wow, I don't know what to say! Thank you all for your postings.
Barb - he is in such a fragile state it is not happy. It is, as Patty says, a roller coaster ride. But, this is really the pitts.
Mimi, I hear you and wish that this could be easier on Dad. He is strong and yet so weak. I have kept telling myself that this stroke hasn't done much damage (mentally that is) but then I pinch myself and say "HE IS BEDBOUND"! This is the worst thing for him...
And, yes Gail, it is deja vu! But hospice is so different this time around. I don't know if they have a bigger budget or Dad is much more serious (as he is) this time. I never got a nurse out before in the evening. This time, they have come at 10-11:00 p.m. if I wanted - I don't however...
I think that my dear Dad will go quietly in his sleep without my interference. Sometimes I feel like I am hovering and other times I feel like I am avoiding... Does that make sense? I think he just wants me to bug off sometimes... But, of course I can't. I can't let him dehydrate or starve to death. But these swinging doors are hard on him.
Love to You All, Glenda