Sending lots of loving hugs your way...I am sorry to hear about your mom. Fortunately, you have renewed your relationship and have been having wonderful healing time with her. In the span of a lifetime... with the soul living on forever, the time you feel was lost was so minute...in the bigger scope.
Your mom knows your love and care. You had been through so much with your father and your siblings. You needed time to heal and be able to make a choice to flow in the direction as you did. I know she understands... and so you are both affording each other a very special gift at this time as she prepares to transition.
It's easy to say let go of the past.. be present in the moment... but I know you are doing this and this is the most important choice you can make at this time.
You are in my thoughts and prayers, as is your mom. You are an incredible gift
for her at this time...
love, light and blessings