Shannon, I remembe rthe feelings you are talking about.
Just let me tell you that it will get worse before it gets better.
I am not trying to discourage you, but you should find someone who can help you through this.
My Mom passed away at the end of January......it is still very tough. There are days when i still sit and cry. There are times when I feel so stupid because I am still crying.
I have tried 2 new jobs since Mom's passing....and I have quit both of them.
You will need to find your 'place' but it will take time.
Give into the sadness, cry, scream, do whatever you have to do to make it through this time. It is not easy and it is not a 'fast' journey.
Like I said it's been almost 8 months since I lost my Mom, it's gotten easier, but I stil have bad days and nights.
I hope you can find someone to be with you and to talk to during this time. That truely does help.
Take care and God Bless...........