Dear Mimi of 4,
It is sad, isn't it when we realize that there is NO ONE in our family that really wants to hear or really cares? I've been dealing with these same issues and feelings, and believe me, I have no answers for you. I finally turned to a psychotherapist to help me deal with everything. I'm usually a very strong person and able to manage much, but I've become so depressed that I am not able to bring myself out of it. I use to be able to exercise and take a mild antidepression med and that would pretty much take care of it, but not now...I can't even get myself to exercise; instead, when I have an extra hour, I sleep -- that seems to be my escape. I kept telling myself I was just needing to adjust to mom moving in, but I now realize it's much more than just the caregiving; it's having the family members here, within a 20 mile radius and feeling so alone.
Mimi of 4, I hope you can work out your feelings. There are so many kind hearted people on this site, so willing to listen and give advice when they can...best wishes to you...Mimi of 7