Thank you so much. Funny how the people who were helping me care for Mom and her friends became my whole world. Some of them are still in touch right now, but soon they won't have any reason to be in contact with me anymore. Strange, but I feel like I want to hold onto them, even the Hospice people, like I can hold onto Mom in that way. My animals seem to be grieving too. I have a cat who laid on Mom's bed right up till the end and now she lays on the floor in the room where the bed was before they came and took it away. My dogs lay around and just look sad. I will return to work in a week and a half and I guess that will really be hard on them, as Mom was always here with them and they weren't alone. In the past two years, I wouldn't say she actually took care of them, but she was here with them. I considered going back to work immediately after the funeral, as perhaps it would do me good. But that is what I did after my father died, thinking that I needed to get back into life right away and I regretted it later, not taking more time to let it sink in. Months later, I would start crying over his death.
Miriam, I am so sorry your mom is getting more confused. I know how hard it is. With my mother, I feel like communication between us began breaking down about two years ago because of the Alzheimer's and that is part of my heartbreak now. You and your mother are in my thoughts and thank you for being a friend.