Hi ya angel,
I hear you friend. I know that nothing anyone says to you really helps, as I to am going through something as well. I haven't physically lost my dad, or mom, but my feelings are feelings of grief, as I believe yours is. It comes in waves, and lately I am finding it difficult to keep the smile on my face too. I went from working P/T to F/T and what was I thinking? I also think for me I am in that menopause thing, and haven't clue how to deal with that either.
Hang in there, easier said than done, just do what you need to do, pray, cry, rant and rave, take a nice walk, bath, whatever it is at that moment you need to do, FOR YOU.