I've discovered something about this situation I find myself in. Staying away from the issue makes it worse. I thought if I'd give myself a break from surfing the web for every piece of information I could read that maybe I'd feel better or something. Well that isn't the case. I find I especially need this website in a major way. I wanted to say thank you again.
P.S. I can change my UserName to Granny Dee if you like (and if you'll tell me how)