This has been a hard week, I've been depressed feeling most of this week. I've read some of the posts, but haven't been reading or much of anything else this week. I spent all day Monday with Moma. The gastroenterologist I worked for 10 years ago did an upper endoscopy and dilated her esophagus (she has had an esophageal stricture for 20+ years) as she had gotten to where she couldn't swallow liquid without it "dragging" on the way down and stopping. The rest of the week I've watched my grandson from 7am until 6pm, then gone to Moma's. I'm just tired and depressed this week. It seems she isn't getting many visitors and she seems somewhat low. Physically, she has been more like herself for about a week now. I think she is over the first session of chemotherpay, unfortunately she is due to start the next session on Monday. She is finished her radiaiton treatment but is going to have another MRI on her right leg to see if there is anything there that would benefit from radiation. I'm tired, I'm depressed and most of this week I've wondered alot about what the next few weeks and months will hold. I want to be with Moma more but this won't happen until my grandson goes to pre-school June 5th. I know I'm not the first caregiver to feel this way. I haven't even felt like talking to anybody. I NEED YOUR PRAYERS IN A MAJOR WAY!!!
PS How long is a too long post? Seems all of my posts could be a chapter of a book. Dee