Self-esteem... I could write volumes - on how not to have any!
It's a process for definite. You don't just wake up and decide I will be confident from now on out. I've made strides sure... but the work isn't over. Something can happen and I feel like I'm spiralling into a cess pit of self-hatred.
Small eg. one dinner I made did not go off well, I mixed two ingredients in a stirfry that hubby really didn't like together. He was kind about it, just asking if I could please not make it again. To him it tasted awful, to me I didn't even notice...
I was devastated - cried for days about it. Now it sounds completely ridiculous now but I thought my world was crashing down because hubby didn't like what I made! Just made me realise that you make progress but the core of the problem still lives with you and you have to keep on chipping away at the old stone. You don't just 'get better' when it comes to the wily self-esteem. (Hubby did talk some sense into me and assured me one meal isn't going to end the world, he usually likes everything I make, it was just this one time) For contrast I think he's palate is spoiled and I ate that dinner for lunch the next day... which may just be the simmerings of ... confidence. Who knows....
Have a great day... I tried last night to get into your forum and my pc was acting up... something about the harddrive 'clicking' which hubby has now fixed and just maybe it will co-operate with me tonight.. disobedient technology.