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i would like to share my experience with expectations of others,i have felt how each one of you have expressed,have responde how you have and all that,found myself one day wanting to commit myself,wanting to die,feeling lonely,sad,shame,anger,fear,pity,resentful,all at the same time,lost my mind in order to hear what GOD needed to tell me,once GOD got my attention,got me still,i was able to hear the still small voice that was within me,telling me to let go of other people's stuff,stay focus on what it is that GOD would like me to do in this journey with my MOTHER,not what or how i think it should be,who i think that's been carring me,I THANK GOD for the support of total strangers as well as friends,i accept the help from where it comes from,not where i expect it to come from,a friend said to me,VALERIE,you can not expect people to give out of their element,it took a minute to get her message,but what she was saying that people give,do according to their own level,there are very few who will go the extra mile,i hope i have explained that to your understanding,for example,lets say i need someone to come and take my MOTHER TO AN APPOINTMENT,well i must think who i know that has demonstrated that when i needed a ride,who showed up in the past,so i know that i can get a ride,do you see what i mean,well let me go on,in this journey with being a care giver,i have seen my own issues with my MOTHER,my resentments,how i thought i had dealt with them,but what happens,more surface,and then she has her own unresolved issues,so we are always clashing,so for me the solution has been to address,acknowledge,forgive me,talk about them,pray,write,read,listen to tapes and music that encourages and up lifts my SPIRIT,i HAVE TO SAFE AND CARE FOR ME FIRST,FOR IT WILL BE KNOW I COULD SHOW UP FOR MY MOTHER,IF I AM UNABLE TO SHOW UP FOR MYSELF,HOW CAN I GIVE SOME ONE ELSE,,THAT WHICH I HAVE NOT GIVEN MYSELF,IF I DO I AM GIVING OUT OF GUILT NOT LOVE.THIS SITE HAS BEEN A BLESSING IN MY LIFE,I HAVE RECEIVED SO MUCH LOVE AND HELP FROM OTHERS PEOPLE'S EXPERIENCES,I DRAW FROM THE HOPE,AND KNOWING I AM NOT ALONE,SO TO ALL THE CARE GIVERS I SAY I LOVE YOU,I APPRECIATE YOU AND I RELEASE YOU ALL TO GOD TO RECEIVE ALL THAT IS GOOD AND ALL THAT HE HAS FOR US ALL,BE BLESSED AND PERSERVE,I GIVE YOU HONOR AND PRAISE,
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