Shannon, I feel your pain.
You are in the worst time right now. It does get better but it takes time.
My Mom passed away at the end of January and there are many, many days when I cry and miss her so much I don't think I can stand it anymore.
Just know that your Mom is in a better place. I know that's not much consolation when you are missing her so much.
But take care of yourself. And go ahead and cry.
God Bless, Patty